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or talk to anyone.
Rape …
isnt your fault
didnt have to happen
is about power, not about sex or love
Can you stay strong? Can you go on? Kristy, are you doing okay? A rose that won’t bloom, winter’s kept you - don’t waste your whole life trying to get back what was taken away… </3
Visions of my younger years, they are buried
But the scenes that play inside of me, are impending
They are never ending…
But the scenes that play inside of me, are impending
They are never ending…
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| — | Where Are You ~ Wilson Phillips (via scarletbeadshidden) |
I always avoid eye contact because I feel somehow violated. I don’t look strangers in the eye. I hardly look my family in the eye. It’s like they can see right through me, into me. Somehow judging me. Like they know: I’ve been raped. I let it happen.
that i am awful, flawed, and despicable is truly at the core of so much of my self destruction.
i wish i could truly identify where it came from. i know that a lot of the origins stem from the sexual abuse i endured from the ages of three until seven. it’s so hard to challenge this component but…
Its never your fault !
Rape…..A loss of innocence
Rape…..I didn’t have a choice
Rape…..Nobody heard my voice
Rape…..Memory of the pastI hope it erases out of my memory,
so I don’t have to remember the past.
I wish she didn’t tell me to go
so I would still have it.
My innocence, I mean.
I used to be so…
The hardest things for me..
about the rape was after he and I broke up. He took a part of my innocent soul with him. Never once thought about what it would do to me. Or how it would hurt if he left. He didnt care. I know it doesnt make me a bad person. But it didnt feel like I was a good person. What had I done to have someone take something I wasnt ready to give away. Why did it have to be me? I didnt do anything to deserve that. No one does. I just wanted to be happy. And for the longest time I had to fake my happiness after that. Even around him. How could I stay in a relationship with the guy who did that to me? Because I was naive. I wanted him to change. I wanted him to keep his words. I wanted to make him into the prince charming I am sure he will never be. I should have left well enough alone. But I believe that being able to leave the relationship eventually was the best thing I did. My life hasnt been easy or wonderful (not all the time at least) but I know every single person who decides to take their life back is so much stronger than they ever had been.
Rape is a prevalent problem, increasing with our evolving society.Given my solid stance on sexual assault, I have blogged about rape and violence previously, and I will not let the US Military escape my scathing tongue.
Ideologically, rape within the US Military, should not occur.America is the…
I dont understand why people think this is okay. :/
